Thursday, November 15, 2007

update on the night shift II

i finished the est essays last night and handed it up today.
i finished the add math thing this morning and handed it up today.

my sis fell in school and landed in the most spectacular way. if she were a guy, it would have hurt. her skirt tore at the joining part... what do u call that in kh? kelim? haha. i laughed till my sides hurt when she told me.

kay lynn and i are rushing against time to complete the latecomers' list for form 5s. we still have form 3s to do and we only have a few days left! there's something wrong with the form 2 and form 4 list and i thoroughly pity jean-li and wai yee because they have just learnt the syst today and have to work full swing. SORRY!

currently listening to: miyavi KAVKI BOIZ ver. - selfish love-aishitekure, aishiterukara
currently feeling: rushed!

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

update on the night shift I

i've just finished 6 EST essays in 4 hours 30 minutes straight. only getting up once to answer the phone. wow... persistence pays off! so, conclusion is that i can discipline myself if i really wanted to. gives me more hope about next year. =)

add math project.. sigh.
i thought i could've passed it up today. asked tsl a few questions. BOOM! kena from her.

"AIYOO... why your graph like that? cannot.." and then "blablablablablablablablablabla" and "your data wrong!"

"no, teacher, i checked already"

"how can like that?" and "where you get your data?"

"collect lah"

"nooo... you check your frequency table again"

"ok" and "teacher, how do i count the standard deviation. this one i got 8.529 but this one i got 160... using the formula."

"ah?! how can? where is the computer one?"

"huh? i don't know how to do so i used formula."

"i told u already.. use computer better. now you have to count with calculator and then wrong." and "AIYA! pass up lah!"

she grabs my project and slaps in hard on the desk. like it was my fault that my data was all crazy. whatever. i shall not dwell on thoughts of her.

BM was fun. cik tengku asked me to organise a treasure hunt for the class with glenna's help. shocking. i don't think i'm her fave student. i don't pay att. in class.

there were 2 groups - puputhangarajoo and mo no ko ro boo.

they had to find 5 pieces of hidden coloured paper near the pavillion. once found you start solving the questions.

1. find 3 words in a word maze and use them to write peribahasa. the words were minum, api and bulan.

2. find objects from 3 sentences from 3 malay literature components. (flower, shoes, clothes, book, money)

3. belajar di 4S2 10A1 sudah pasti,
sebab semua guru hebat dan 'chun';
guru bm, matematik dan est,
terangkan personality guna pantun.

this was hilarious. puputhangarajoo's answers:

Tinggi langsing, anggun bergaya,
Memakai kasut tumit tinggi,
Beliau mengajar sedaya upaya,
Kita menjadi insan berakhlak tinggi.

Bercermin mata, berambut kerinting,
Berstoking panjang sampai ke lutut,
Tetap mengajar walaupun kami bising,
Itulah Cik Cheah yang lemah lembut.

"Ah buat" kata Puan Normaria,
Dengan gigih kami tekan kalkulator,
Dengan beliau kami bersuka ria,
Cermin matanya macam Harry Potter.

mo no ko ro boo's wasn't as funny and the jeda's a bit off so, pupu won this round.

4. this one they had to complete sentences taken from "serunai malam" and "budi yang tak terbeli"

5. they had to create and act out 1 scene with these characters Umar, Bibi Zainab and Safiah. i didn't really get to hear pupu's cos they were real soft and mo no's was gila (chinhui, of course la). something about umar is married to bibi. while he's gone, she has an affair with some guy. he comes back and sees them together. the guy's girl is safiah and she sees them as well. safiah says she's pregnant or something. i can't really make out the story...

in the end, the winner is PUPUTHANGARAJOO.

Tuesday, November 13, 2007


i've started listening to a new genre of music which surprises many... but well, i'm me, right? so, from christian music, i've started listening to j-rock. MIYAVI. here's a random thought. read on:

#1 i can't speak japanese.
most of them speak hangol too but i can't either. and most of their english... ain't too good. they'd probably know the F-word, d***, sh** better than other words. LOL

#2 body art
i don't think i really appreciate body art. take miyavi, he's got so many tattoos esp. on his back. if i dated him and had a nasty break-up, he'd probably get a new tattoo that says "I HATE YIWEN" in chinese. and besides, he might contract some odd disease and spread it on to me (don't ask me how).

#3 self-inflicted pain
piercings. check the pic out. he's probably got more then 3 on both ears, 1 on his lip, on his brow, his nose... ah... i think if i were to kiss my j-rocker boyfriend, my lips would get hooked onto his piercing, like fishing, you know... ouch.

#4 hair
they've got ugly hair at times like miyavi in NEO VISUALIZM - half shaved, half long. i think it's called the "Kobo-chan cut" (it's said on miyavi's MASAKARASU's site) eeyuck... or the purple and red when he disturbed some person call Kai on youtube. or that silver bomb-to-the-side hair in an interview, or that or this... i think his normal hairstyle like the pic above is cool enough
#5 behaviour
their nuts. but that's what that's expected from rockers, right? my dad would get a cardiac arrest. sometimes, they act like they're gay or something... i dunno
#6 safety reasons
according to someone, miyavi's ex almost got stabbed to death by fans. I'M NOT WILLING TO DIE.
#7 time & availability
he'd probably be touring round the world promoting his latest album... japan, korea, china, germany, california, LV *inhale* ... i won't be able to see him because i'd most likely have a stable, NORMAL job like architecture or toxicology or something, UNLESS, i follow him and be a sound engineer or a band member... back-up singer... dancer....LOL i can't sing and dance.
#8 they are a bit weird
gackt claims to be 400 years old.
gackt believes he can communicate with the deceased aftter nearly drowning as a kid.
gackt like the smell of some coconut incense and he even eats it! uhh.... holy cow.
#9 dressing sense and fashionability
he'd probably won't be allowed to enter malaysia because of pakaian "mencolok mata" dan luar biasa. they wear odd stuff cos most of them are visual-kei.
#10 time, place and precise accuracy
i'll never get to meet any of them cos j-rockers are generally not allowed to come to conservative m'sia. (sometimes for a good reason eg. kyo, i think, from dir en grey, i think, does self-inflicted injuries on himself while on stage... cutting himself..) so...unless i actually meet them then things can happen otherwise nothing can happen right?
ok... so ALL IN ALL, IT IS NOT POSSIBLE FOR ME TO MARRY/DATE ANY J-ROCKER ON THE FACE OF THE EARTH (no western rockers for me) BECAUSE I'M SO PARTICULAR =D (i'd probably go "oi! take off your earring." or "aik... ANOTHER new tattoo ah?" or "shave half might as well shave bald") LOL.
random entry. =P

4 days and unawaiting

school's about to end and for the 1st time in my schooling history, i'm not anticipating it. at all. the presence of school holidays spell 1 1/2 months of probably loneliness... away from the hustle and bustle of friends.

what do i have lined up for me this hols? let me see...
- badminton centralised training! but it may be postponed because many of the players are participating in some yang yang tourney (i think). i wanted to go for the tourney but i have to play in the women's open so... i thought, forget it.
- youth camp in penang
- langkawi trip. dad's got a course in langkawi for the third time in a duration of 3 months. cool. chocolates, chocolates, chocolates. sun, sea and breeze... my favourite combo. i'm finally going there after 6 years!
- christmas! oh, but there's the headache of present-shopping
- other trips? not too sure...

there's so much to look forward to, but there's so much that's left behind... sweet, lingering memories that (hoppefully) will not be erased from my (failing) memory. people moving on in life or just entering a new phase or just ... leaving...

this year has been my toughest year in MGS so far... beating major-exam year 2006. nerves all hard and edgy, wound salt-rubbing, excess baggage, temporary sunshines, major "hangovers", tiresome transition.... typical.

oh yeah... results are out. i'm remaining in science 2. just a few more steps away from science 1 only. sigh... i really wish i did better, especially in add math and history. i suck at these two subjects (<-- understatement). some are promoted like glenna, ming ru, florence, kar kheng, mei kuan and some are demoted. new members to the class from up north and down under. not anticipating next year.

i'm currently reading new moon which i was eagerly awaiting. however, it was not as good as i expected. in fact, half of the book was disappointingly terribly boring. edward and bella get more melodramatic by the pages and sooner why was it only bella, jacob, bella, jacob, bella, jacob? jake's an oddball (to me) sophomore. bella's just playing dumb and flirting to her own benefit with jake, not listening to that "velvet" voice in her head and getting herself hurt (as usual). there's not much climax and it just like a series recurring events and mishaps. but the uno numero question is:


He only appears for a mere 1/3 of the book. where are the cullens? the only thing that seems to occur is jacob's pursuit for bella who views him as merely her best friend and bella's own "series of unfortunate events" (<--another understatement). it's getting boring and i will not hesitate to scan through the book briefly although the lang is flowery till more exciting parts come.

so, conclusion ... new moon = DISAPPOINTMENT.
hopefully eclipse would be better.

currently listening to: miyavi - kimi ni negai wo
currently feeling: ...

Sunday, November 11, 2007

timeline: 21 hours

patience of 19 hours has begun to wear.
i'm eagerly waiting for just one message that may bring a tinge of hope and maybe a wave of remorse.

approx. 1525 hours 10/11/2007
i saw something that made me happy.

approx. 1610 hours 10/11/2007
i saw something that made me smile in amusement and heard something vaguely that probably would be good. really good.

approx. 1710 hours 10/11/2007
i saw something that spelled bad news and suspicion arose.

approx. 1730 hours 10/11/2007
i found out something that disgusted me.

approx. 1755 hours 10/11/2007
i was agitated and hoping that it wouldn't be as i suspected.

approx. 1830 hours 10/11/2007
i was still thinking of it. anxious.

approx. 2230 hours 10/11/2007
i rush to see a reply. negative.

approx. 2245 hours 10/11/2007
i am thinking of the worst-case scenario.

approx. 2300 hours 10/11/2007
i pray hard.

approx. 2310 hours 10/11/2007 - 0845 hours 11/11/2007
i am restless in my sleep. constant dreaming. well... it's been like that for the past few nights.

please don't be ...

1215 hours 11/11/2007
news! both bad and good. it's not what i suspected. that's good. but i have to run a race now. i'll make sure i'll win it.


excess baggage

am i qualified to judge the living
the people that surround me
that walk about in this room of my life
that exhibits the right and wrong choices of mine?

am i to say that one is wrong
or to decide if one is right?

am i perfectly capable of throwing off
all the excess baggage on my shoulder
without damaging someone
but benefitting my spirit instead?

are you permitted to judgement
of me and the people around you
or that you should leave that up
to the One who hovers above and among us?

are you aware that decisions you make
can build up spirits and break down souls
while you bask in temporary rejoice
while others hide and lick permanent wounds?

are you looking carefully around you
to the pain you have caused
to the friendly spirit you have crushed
all because of an unexplained cold shoulder?

am i being far too harsh
or am i conveying reality
that decisions that you make upon others
have the power to give birth or destroy?

currently listening to: miyavi - jibun kakumei
currently feeling: impatient

Saturday, November 10, 2007

to those who celebrate Deepavali.


alright... i'm back again. i'm thirsty for a good book... reading a good one is something i haven't done in a long time. anyone got any suggestions? affordable (well... the correct word would be "cheap") and interesting.

the one book which i've gotten totally involved in is twilight by stephenie meyer. that book was not only interesting but it was involving too. and.... edward cullen!!! he's the hottest guy i've ever read of in my reading history. honestly. okay... if you really want to know about the story and blablabla just read it. light romance and lots of mystery. nice :)
i'm really looking forward to reading its two sequels - new moon and eclipse. they're out already but gossshhh... the price is a killer. i sorta read 1/4 of 'new moon' in popular today. it's bad, robbing people of business, but i can't afford any new releases of books. their prices are enough to feed me for 8 meals ++. and the government says malaysian don't read enough. well, if books were of more affordable prices, i'm sure more malaysians would read!
i went to play badminton yesterday. with my dad, sean and mel. it was a last-minute thing. we were chatting online real late at night and that idea just popped into my head. i sms-ed glenna early in the morning but no reply. so it was just mel and mel alone. we had a good time... well... i had a good time. i don't know whether mel did or not. after she left, i stayed to stroke with sean. then we asked two boys; one form 1, one form 2, whether we could play a doubles match with them.. they're good and we lost. i played 2 more singles matches with each of them and i lost all four matches. the form 1 boy was better and i lost 21-<10>. the other was ok...close match... dad's thinking of changing my training centre. i'm not too sure...hmm...

Wednesday, November 7, 2007

if i could rewind time...

i would go back to last friday... GRAD NITE!

i really enjoyed the whole friday a LOT. it was hectic though but still thoroughly enjoyable.

let me try to remember how the day went...

ah yea... school ended with a failed acid-base titration chemistry experiment. the crazy phenolphthalein wouldn't turn colourless. okay... so i got really frust.

my sis took a mighty long time to pick ee xin, yee san, yip and i up from school... some B.B. band practice for the joint christmas celebration with G.B. so anyway, made it safely to heritage hotel and immediately got to work. yip and i strained necks hanging up the super long cloths for the stage backdrop.

anyway... things went well. we practised the dance and i realised that i'm getting better. at least i'm not a stumbling block... of wood. the singing was horrid. i couldn't get my solo part right... bleah. so ... i rushed and bathed in the hotel room. haha... because of grad nite.. i got my first spaghetti straps top. LOL. so "ku lou". i got it for a super great price from ti-zed factory. 2 for RM15. it comes in pairs.. i got a black and a blue.

oh... the CREW T-SHIRT! i'm drastically in LOVE with it.

like it? i'm so bangga... hmm... =)
<-- this is my anak.

the balloons came and we tied them to some of the chairs. they looked so professional!!!

had dinner at the singgah@H. the food was good but i couldn't really enjoy. gastric attack again.

anyway... the night was about to begin when i realised i lost something important that was important to someone important. glenna, mel and jess would know what i'm talking about so i need not elaborate here. btw, i found it in the mess of room 608.

the night began and holy cow, the decor was... pooh. one of the lanterns caught fire a bit and the floating candles self-extinguish. how destructive is that.

the dance went well. only that i forgot one part and almost went and did the final pose. LOL. was i that impatient to get of the stage???

the singing was horrible. in my stage fright, i squeaked badly during the solo. tengku hasnah commented today in school that watching the singing was fun because i sang off-tune. ouch... *clutches chest*

at the entrance, the f4s were llike paparazzis. snap, snap, snap pics of the f5s. first time i've seen so many camera flashes at once (esp. when beh came. so many flashes that it was like as though some goddess of the silver screen came to the oscars). gosh.

the thing went smooth-sailing. grad queen was super funny. shen-ly won, henna came second and i think a zuleika got third. zuleika or mashitah??? can't remember.

cleared up the stuff... packed my things and left... one week's effort for one night only.

so... there were a lot of first times for me doing this grad nite:

- going inside beauty balloons and ordering 84 balloons

- decorating a hotel ballroom

- climbing up a ladder higher that the 5th step and standing there without holding on to the ladder

- working with floating candles

- working with helium balloons

- getting spaghetti straps

- dancing modern dance in public

- singing in public

- slept past 3 after 2 years of fear (ask me if you want to find out)

- seeing so many camera flashes in a second

i think that's about it. night. gotta finish that chemistry report..

Friday, November 2, 2007

short break

ok. i'm taking a short break here from doing grad nite prep. tiring...

grad nite's tomorrow and i can't help feeling SUPER excited. prep's going quite well. just ordered 84 helium balloons and i'm wondering how to transport them there.

the dance... i'm getting better at it, THANKFULLY. :) haha... jess had to teach me that day. i had to do the t-shirt design and hand it up the very same day, so, i couldn't go for the practice. tuition class :P.

ahhh... i'm so excited. :D but i'm pretty tired. stayed back in school till 4 pm. beh and kim stayed back too and they saw me on the way out. beh had to go home, so, kim teman-ed me. laughed like mad... :D

went to jusco to get a tank top for the dance. haha... i look weird.

anyway, mel will be leaving in 2 weeks time and i'm so, so sad. :( and another person is leaving for either NZ or aussie. both of them are so close to me and yet, once again, i'm losing two people i love so much. i'll miss them so much and especially all the laughter, fun, and even tears that we shared for the past few years. i prayed and prayed so that mel won't leave, but apparently, God has some other plans for her. to me, she's like a:
- four leaf clover: hard to find
- hot chocolate: warm & comforting
- a ride in the amusement park: fun & exciting
- a great movie: hard to forget

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